Plateau & Stress

Not that I want to make excuses as to why this week wasn't as successful as I would hope, but this week was tough. I tend to run to comfort foods when things go wrong and I'm working on that, but this week has seriously taken a tool on my spirit.

I refuse to give up though, hence why I plan to try a lot harder and to make up for it this upcoming week, but...*sigh*....Things don't always go as you want it to. I just pray for strength to make it through...not only in terms of this journey, but in terms of all the things I NEED to accomplish this upcoming year but I don't see where the strength to do it will come from. Perfect definition of FAITH right there.

So no jumping up and down this week, but I am still content. I realize that not every week is going to be easy and I'll have my up's and downs, but the joy comes in making it back up again.

....Taking it easy, well trying to at least.

You Look Different ?!

I normally wouldn't think losing ten pounds would make that much of a difference, but I guess it does. I have reached my 10% mark lol. I lost 10 pounds! I am rather proud of myself I might add, yet I still recognize that I have a long way to go, a long journey that I am excited to take. I wonder what I will look like when I have reached the 50% mark.

One thing I would like to change is my control of my weekends. I normally try to give myself one day of the week where I'm not so strict with my diet, just to satisfy one or two cravings, however my free days tend to roll over from Saturday to Sunday. I dont want to end up ruining my achievements for that week in the process of trying to satisfy my mouth.

Otherwise things have been rather nice. My clothes fit a little looser and that is nice feeling to wake up to. (Not to mention the compliments are kool...im not letting it get to my head). I've been busy busy busy with school and all I can think about it sleep sleep sleep, so not thinking about food isn't that hard on the weekdays.

Making the best of this lifestyle...and its not that bad, its actually kind of refreshing :)

Be Good!

Another week has passed... another long hard week. No so much for the dieting, but just life in general which is usually how things go. I lost 5 pounds this week. Yeah I'm happy about it, but not as happy as I thought I would be. Not to say I'm thinking that oh I would've lost more or something, but I'm just not in the mood to be happy today lol. Yeah..I know I'm weird. I think I know why I'm upset today, but I really wish I wouldn't let things like that affect me, but they always do. I don't feel comfortable talking about it yet, so I'll just leave it at..."Don't let other people determine your value". That's hard to do sometimes when you are still in the process of realizing your own worth, but it just sucks...I dunno if any of this makes sense...Im just discombobulated today. Mixture of emotions...but mostly hurt...what's new.
On the brighter note, my 5lbs loss means success. I havent started exercising yet though, but I really want to. Its a matter of making the time to do it, which is never an excuse, but it sure does feel like it after a long day and all you want to do is pass out, but instead you have hw and studying to do. Speaking of hw & studying I better go get to it.
...~Praying for a brighter day~...

Week 1 Down...Life to Go!

I'm slowly adjusting to eating better, not only when I'm at home, but also when I spend a long 6am to 6pm day out at school, or when my friends decide to go out to eat and I have to choose a healthier meal than I normally would, but all things come with time so I'm just pacing myself. It's kinda weird when your the only one eating a salad and everyone else wants burger and fries lol. Though I can't complain too much because these days, those salads actually taste kinda good, and they are pretty filling as well, so I'm gonna enjoy my greens thank you very much!

I am happy to say I've lost 2 pounds! Normally I would starve all week and lose 5lbs (then gain it all back a week later lol), but I'm seeing progress and this makes me happy. Two pounds takes a lot of work, but it's much easier when you don't have to deprive yourself of the things you love. I plan to try to walk on the treadmill at least half an hour each day. Just to help the process along and to tone my body better..I don't wanna be all saggy! That might be a little hard since my 12 hour school day can be quite draining, but I am determined to do better for myself, 1 pound at a time...so ne who, I have to go get some hw done. I'm outtie!

Oatmeal & Fruit

So mommy has this new brilliant weight loss discovery. Oatmeal! It has already been proven that a bowl of oatmeal can lower cholesterol (oh God I sound like a commercial lol) but now I hear that it acts like a sponge to remove fats from the body. So guess what I'm having for breakfast every morning... oatmeal! Though I've hated it for as long as I could remember, its worth a try. I had some this morning, and it wasn't bad. It was actually a life saver cuz I didn't know what I was going to have for breakfast and that normally leads to me picking something out of the refrigerator that I shouldn't be eating.

So I was healthy today, though my trip to see my dad may have lead me to come home seeking "comfort food", I enjoyed dinner with my little sister and just talked it out. So yeah I was good today. Hope this is a long term choice because the first days are hard and I dont want another first day.

Going to hang out all day tomorrow =) Houston we have a life!

Nite Nite...