Still Holding On

God works in amazing ways...

Well I'm still working hard on this new lifestyle I've adapted. It has certainly been a while since I've kept in touch but I haven't given up. Of course it is summer time so that means BBQ's and get together's, beaches and all that good stuff, but happily I have neither gained nor lost any weight, which is A-OK with me. Rather I have learned to balance it out amist all the events that I have had to attend/enjoy. I have even gotten myself to work out at least 30 mins a day to keep myself in shape. Although this is progress, I guess I still lacked what was necessary to change my way of thinking of myself. If you remember my first post on this blog, I was going through an anti-ME phase where I simply could not be happy with myself as I am today and that will held me back. Well..God sees right through me and He sent me a message...

"When God created human beings He created them in different sizes because he loves diversity and being bigger does not mean you are not beautiful. I need to stop seeing people and myself according to size. I am beautiful in the eyes of God. I need to stop putting myself down because I am not thin. (...Mediate on Psalm 139..)"

Well that was from my sister who out of no where just one day said she had a dream and that message was for me. It brought tears to my eyes because it was as if God saw my heart and spoke to me exactly as I needed to hear and brought up everything that was going through my head. I am famous for comparing myself to others, and putting myself down. Most of all I am famous for putting myself down because I am not a size this or that. I am going to aim for a healthy figure, and a body that I can be happy and comfortable with, but that doesn't mean I need to be a size "that girl". I simply need to be a size "ME".