Lifting My Burdens

I suppose getting over the fact that something has got to give is enough to lift a few weights off your shoulders.

Today I woke up more determined to make a change for the better, and though it hasn't been perfect I definitely feel different. Maybe I was a little harsh on myself yesterday (bad day I guess), but the fact of the matter is, I am unhappy with my appearance. Yes I am a beautiful young woman, but I hide behind my weight far too much and I'm just not satisfied with it.

Today I went with a few friends and I tried something new. I stopped comparing myself with other people. It is something I do quite often and it always yields the same results, the gut feeling that I am a lesser person because I'm not a perfect size this or that. So anyway, today I stopped doing that, and I actually had a good time. I'm not saying I was perfect, but I did feel a sense of just letting go which felt good.

I have this thing where every time Monday morning comes around I start a new diet...and usually by Wednesday or Thursday I've gotten tired of it and binge on something that is far from the planned menu. The only time I can remember actually sticking to my plan was when I was on the diet program. Nothing against it in general, but who wants to go around for the rest of their lives weighing out EVERY LITTLE THING that goes into your mouth. I think that the least I can do though is to take the some tools I've learned from that program and use it to make it past Wednesday and Thursday afternoon, and especially Friday when a pizza always sounds like a great dinner.

Today I wasn't perfect but hopefully I learned something..oh yeah! I did...I am beautiful.